Mercy
I have long known that I am a slave to my hormones. But recently it's been more apparent than ever.
Take the weekend. It passed in a haze of self-indulgent misery, and weeping. My bust - what little there is of it - hurt, I looked like I was in the early stages of pregnancy, and my clumsiness reached new bounds. If I wasn't dropping stuff, I was banging into it. Even stuff which has stayed neatly in the same place for the last ten years, like doors.
And then take today. When I woke to a familiar nagging pain in my stomach. By about 10am, I'd switched completely from wanting to kill myself, to wanting to kill someone else. The Depressions don't generally make such a swift exit, so I'm not counting my chickens, but for today at least, they have been replaced with The Rage and The Irritation. Which is possibly better for me, but not so much for the people who incurred my wrath this morning. (Although to be fair, regardless of my mood, they genuinely deserved it. I may be a mentalist, but I am a professional.)
My monthly cycle and I have held an uncomfortable truce for some time. But in recent months, it would appear a full-blown battle's in motion.
Is this the onset of the menopause?
It's unlike me not to analyse, but I'm headed for the bath with Grazia, and will resist. I'll simply say this. If you see me this week, I'd advise you to stay out of my way. Because if I'm not crying on your shoulder, I may well be drawing a dagger to plunge in your back.
Mercy - Duffy
posted by Cat @ Tuesday, September 23, 2008
17 Comments:
Isn't it great, being a woman? Enjoy your time in the bath. x
I've been reading your blog over the last little while (I found you through bete de jour)and I wanted to say that this post made me laugh. I swear the older one gets (I have no idea of what your age is) the worse the hormones are. I'm at the mercy of mine too.
Am I the only one who doesn’t suffer in any way when it’s TOM! I guess I must be lucky either that or totally blind...
Take care Cat... x
Sounds sooo familiar!
The joys of womanhood, eh?
x
I was very much at the mercy of my hormones until I got the Mirena coil, which has successfully banished my cycle virtually altogether.
When I was younger I wasn't aware of such highs and lows, but certainly post-my 2nd child and pre-Mirena I was a wreck, for the first time ever knowing doing myself serious damage was more than a possibility. Shit me right up.
Early menopause? Probably not.
Your hormones change. I'm 32 and at the mercy of mine more than I have ever been. It's not menopause. It's just change.
Out of a Bottle, my bath was lovely, thanks. Then I had proper comfort food - macaroni cheese!
Heidi, hello, and welcome. I'm 35, for the record.
Alison, I am jealous of your trouble free time - very jealous!
Janey and Lindsay, it's rubbish.
Mephitis, I find it frightening some months just how unhinged I am. I'm unhinged generally, but this scares me.
Hen, I hope you're right - I do like to fret, you know.
Hi Cat
From my experience - the last 4 years have definitely seen a change for me. (I am 40 btw). Joyfully I seem no longer to have the soreness up top. I used to get a whopping migraine practically every month - I still do get "a one day headache" but i have been taking Feverfew which seems to have banished them or made them into more bearable headaches (if there is such a thing!). The biggest change I have thus noticed so far is that the "amount" has increased (quite worringly some months), the pain has definitely increased and it can last a whole 2 weeks longer - YES you did read that right, a whole 2 weeks longer. Not every single time mind you, oh and as for keeping a date when it starts - forget it ! I am still awaiting last weds (which was day 29 my "normal" regular appointment) to make an appearance.
So from my experience, i certainly think I have "begun" the old perimenopause and I would hate to say the same for you but sadly it could (possibly) be.
I do hope you enjoy your bath and just remember whatever - you are not alone in your pain...I truly sympathise!!
Susan
probably too soon for menopause - but you should be able to get your doc to do a hormone check.
yes, my moods range madly these days... The Rage, The Cry, The Irritation, The Blues, The Anti-Christ (my secretary watches for this one...)
breathe. wine and hot baths...
It's all a cunning trick set up by Father Nature... the old hormones get progressively worse so that eventually we welcome the menopause with welcome arms. At least it'll give us something to moan about, anyway.
hurrah for my mini pill I got a year ago - no periods at all, no moods, no weight gain or hair loss and still a great sex drive.
I am 40 in January though and I know I will have to come off it. I was pill-less for 12 years and I know its not the best thing at this age to take it again.
But I've had a great hormonal year.
Smug Katie
Think you are a bit young for the menopause! Have you tried taking evening primrose oil? I think it really does help. The liquid one you can get from boots is nicer than the capsules.
Hope you feel better soon!
x
LOL! Just been sent to you via Black Box! I have been doing it rather obsessivly but this is the first time its sent me to someone I already 'know'!
Oh poor you! Men are so lucky, don't you think.
If it is menopause you need to take something to help, this is awful. Heading that way myself, but symptoms not too severe yet
Came via Black box, I liked your blog very much.
Great to meet you!
That sounds like me the other week - I'm back to 'normal' now. But my poor son's ears must be ringing from the shouting he received from me.
Doubt it's the menopause, from what I've heard that's an altogether different kind of hell, hot flushes etc. Something to look forward to ;-)
Ohhhh...that all sounds very familiar! What I want to know is how my very small breasts can have the audacity to hurt so much!
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